Moving on…

Moved on… what does it really mean?

Does it mean your completely over a person you once loved? That you no longger have a hint of feeling of pain left in your heart from your breaking up? Or is it just a phrase you say to people who asks you how you are with your ex.

Honestly, I dont really know. All I know is that Im trying. Trying to move on.

Its been 11 months now since we parted ways, both physically and emotionally. I knew 9 months of togetherness is nothing compared to what other couples have in their relationships, but hey, to me ours was everything. You said it yourself, we were still young, I could still change, change my feelings. But why am I still thinking about you, yearning for you? Why do I still care? Why havent I changed yet???

I’ve got to say I never knew I could be this happy with my own life after what happened between us. Or should I say after what I did to you. Im so sorry I hurt you.

Im enjoying my studies now, my work, my family. Taking it slowly one step at a time. I never thought i could go through my future without you. But bang! Here I am now in that same future I was dreading. But look at me. Still standing. Still fighting.

How about moving on. Now I think that’s a better phrase. It shows the truth that you’re trying. Trying to live. Trying to survive. Trying to fight through the present and into the future without the person you valued so deeply.

And just the fact that your trying, is enough reason to be happy. To be thankful. Enough reason to keep fighting.