Net Cafe Junkie and that Forgettable-Unforgettable Character

Okay, so I just crossed the two-hour mark here at the internet cafe near our house (near for me, that is). Gosh, its been more than 2 hours now. So what have I done so far???

1. Replied to Ingrid's e-mail.
2. Checked out my E-mail, Friendster, Sillimanians, etc.
3. Updated this blog's lay-out
4. Checked out some videos on YouTube and played Celine Dion's "I'm Alive" Music Video for the thousandth time

Hmmm… mukhang konti lang and looks like they're not so 2 hoursy, pero ewan ba bakit ang tagal-tagal ko. Pero anyways, yung no.4 item sa taas, hay! Na-inlove nanaman ako sa kanta na "I'm Alive". Check it out, may link na yung video sa Music Bidyo section sa kaliwa.

By the way I just finished Season 2 of Gray's Anatomy about 2 days ago sa DVD. I was able to finish over 20 episodes in 2 weeks. Okay, so Im a DVD marathon whore now.

Pero maganda talaga yung series. I think season 1 is about to start palang sa Studio 23 and kakatapos lang sa Star World. It's a medical drama focusing on the working relationships between medical-surgical interns, nurses, resident and attending doctors sa very high-end/prestigious hospital in Seattle, Seattle Grace Hospital. Oh no, not just working relationships pala, pati sexual, emotional, lahat-lahat na. The lead characacter is Meredith Gray played by Ellen Pompeo(she starred daw sa Catch Me If You Can Movie with Leo Di Caprio, Ive seen it but I cant remember the movie that much eh). I dont know if this is a positive thing to say, but she reminds me of Sex and the City's…

…Yung main character dun!? Punyeta nasa dulo na ng dila ko eh… GRRRR!!!

Moving on…

Moved on… what does it really mean?

Does it mean your completely over a person you once loved? That you no longger have a hint of feeling of pain left in your heart from your breaking up? Or is it just a phrase you say to people who asks you how you are with your ex.

Honestly, I dont really know. All I know is that Im trying. Trying to move on.

Its been 11 months now since we parted ways, both physically and emotionally. I knew 9 months of togetherness is nothing compared to what other couples have in their relationships, but hey, to me ours was everything. You said it yourself, we were still young, I could still change, change my feelings. But why am I still thinking about you, yearning for you? Why do I still care? Why havent I changed yet???

I’ve got to say I never knew I could be this happy with my own life after what happened between us. Or should I say after what I did to you. Im so sorry I hurt you.

Im enjoying my studies now, my work, my family. Taking it slowly one step at a time. I never thought i could go through my future without you. But bang! Here I am now in that same future I was dreading. But look at me. Still standing. Still fighting.

How about moving on. Now I think that’s a better phrase. It shows the truth that you’re trying. Trying to live. Trying to survive. Trying to fight through the present and into the future without the person you valued so deeply.

And just the fact that your trying, is enough reason to be happy. To be thankful. Enough reason to keep fighting.

Photos photos photos!!!

Uploaded lots of pictures today, or should I say transfered most of them from my Friendster and Photobucket galleries. Hope ya'll enjoy them.

Just came from swimming class for P.E. kanina. Enjoy naman. Medyo bitin nga lang tsaka nakakaboring for someone who already knows how to swim. Syempre blend in muna tayo, di naman tayo show-off eh. Pero it sure was nice to be back in the water again.

Im hungry now. Will go and eat something muna. Catch ya'll soon (since when did I started using "Ya'll"??? Yuck. Haha).

But one song first before I leave…

A photo can say a thousand things
But it cant say the million things i wanna say
A photo can capture the way we were
But it cant capture the way we are
Cause you're far away

What it's like to know you
What it's like to touch you, yeah

When you told me that you loved me
Were those just words?
You cant tell me you dont need me
And i know that hurts
Cause im looking at your picture
Cause its all i've got
Maybe one day you and me will have
One more shot

-Photo by Ryan Cabrera

Ciao.

So im back…

Its the third week of school. So far okay naman. Except for that quiz I failed in Human Anatomy and Physiology about cell parts and life cycle. God, 10 units ko nang na-tackle yang cell na yan di parin ma-retain retain sa utak ko. Hay.

Anyways, na-inlove naman ako agad sa school ko. Ok naman ang crowd at atmoshpere. Planning to join the swimming team, depende kung me scholarship, ahehe.

Before classes started pala, I was able to make my one and only vacation stint all summer. Thanks to my ate. We went on a weekend island hopping trip to Coron, Palawan. Saya-saya. We swam in three lakes at yung isa eh sobrang close nya sa dagat kaya nag-mi-mix yung freshwater and saltwater.

There was also this lake na sobrang linaw. Mga 30-40 ft yata ang visibility. At sobrang lalim pa. They call it the barracuda lake dahil marami daw barracuda. Well, aside from the fact na di kami nakakita ng ni isang barracuda, eh from what I know, salt water creature ang barracuda fishes, eh lake nga. Hmmm, subject to verification pa ang info na yan, pero if that's the case, that would be irony. And I love irony as much as I love that lake. 

Some trekking was involved pa to reach the lakes. Medyo hassle pero very rewarding naman ang lake once you get there. Now that's what I call nature tripping.

We also climbed Mount Tapyas. Another irony here dahil bundok nga sya kaso me concrete staircase pa-akyat. Oh diba. Will see if I can upload some of the photos we had.

So, blog status naman ngayon. Ahmmm, na-decipher ko na rin sa wakas ang aking gallery dito sa i.ph. Tsaka, bago na rin ulit ang lay-out. Kapag meron akong regular audience dito sa blog kong to eh Im gonna apologize sa inconsistency ng pag-susulat ko. Lulubog-lilitaw. Pero since napaka-konti naman ng nagme-message sa chatbox at walang nagco-comment, I assume na walang akong taga-subaybay. Im so kawawa

Finally!!!

Na-decipher ko rin sa wakas ang aking gallery! Yahoo!!! Ayan, iba na ang banner. Gosh, my creative juices suddenly started to flow…

…Kaso I need to log-out na. I’ll see yah all when my blog is finally reborn. Ciao